Circles
Looking across the sky, I feel tears form and I let them fall from my eyes,
getting my mind ready to circumnavigate another new day of life
knowing you will never, ever be mine.
I drag my heels across the concrete on a crude Autumn day,
day dreaming about a Summer breeze, carrying my bones over Ocean waves. In my head — I throw myself across the Universe and land right by your side, foolishly, still hoping you will save room for me in between your arms
on one of these long nights, perhaps I’ll have to wait until next lifetime
remember our last kiss felt like our first time
but in between we just lost sight,
remember our worst times always followed our best times
but in between we just held onto the lie
Our eyes pointed towards our zenith
piercing the space like searchlights,
throwing stupid promises into the sky
knowing they were already broken lies,
being absolute never suited you and I.
Our stories aren’t over, still entwined —
but I know you will never, ever be mine
Why is it so hard to say goodbye
to who we used to be?
Once upon a different time
we proceeded without caution towards the wildest wind,
chasing away dark clouds
and basking in every single sunrise.
Now we’re haunted by those ghosts
so full of sunsets and all of that moonlight
unhealed pain whispers in our ears each night,
sleepless — our dreams long since crumbled and died.
We’re wide awake as anger screams from our tongues with raw delight
at the nightmare that has become the reality of you and I.
Our beautiful mess,
our dance — our song
will settle like dust before too long
remember our last kiss felt like our first time
but in between we just lost sight,
remember our worst times always followed our best times
but in between we just held onto the lie
I wish I would have known how it felt to feel this alone
before I told you to go,
now I feel nothing but us in every one of my bones.
Anywhere we go, everything we do comes back around
to sit with us quietly somehow,
the circle remains unbroken by geographies different area codes.
Seemingly hopeless, I give you my love to hold,
sitting in this empty space —
I hope it keeps me whole
