Evolving on the run

out of breath — I take a pause

I fall on bended knees

alone, at the alter of change

I appeal helplessly for its mercy

my eyes are like tear stained glass windows, dam barriers — delicately poised

trying not to let the water out or in — if only for a few sacred moments

I blink and blink, savouring this space of thinking deeply about nothing — for what seems an eternity

papering over the cracks of me, i’m hoping I won’t drown

I brace myself for the inevitable — unquenchable flood

yesterday is a land far, far and away from now, and tomorrow has no business with me anyhow

there is chaos in longing to think clearly sometimes, as if at the edge of losing your mind

my heart tensed and my head unbowed, I exhale whispering to myself out loud

blooming becomes you

this should be all that counts

silently, I can do nothing but surrender — holding onto me

but my rogue subconscious — can’t help wondering

will this next wave take me under?