Sleep sensations 2.0

“ Comfort is the poison.” —

The morning after the night before

I’m convinced that our dreams are much more than random scenes and sequences, I believe they offer deep insight into our emotional well-being.

I am currently tussling with how to resolve an unresolved relationship, so in my last post — I explored the possibility of pre-programming my dreams, to gain further insight and guidance with decisions about that.

I had quite a vivid nightmare, that doesn’t bode well for the future of said relationship. The problem is, I’m a little resistant to that being a reality. In other words, I’m more ‘comfortable’ with the current in limbo situation than I am with the idea of a final closing of that chapter.

So, last night when I ‘tried’ to continue with the pre-programming dreams experiment — I sabotaged it.

Why?

Because…

“ Comfort is the poison.”

And clearly, I’m still willing to drink it when it comes to that situation.

Acts of self betrayal

Whenever we find ourselves challenged by something about ourselves, or a situation that we need to actively change — in order to evolve and maintain emotional well-being. Those are the moments you or I are most susceptible, to committing acts of self betrayal.

Fear of the unknown, this is why change is so nerve wracking and the poison of comfort is so appealing. Like a warped survival strategy, in place of exploring better judgement.

As non-sensical as it seems — It’s why they say ‘it’s better the devil you know’, it’s why we choose to stay stuck whilst recognising we are in fact stuck, it’s why Stockholm Syndrome is a thing, it’s why alot of people are merely sleep walking and not actually living, it’s why last night I chose to pollute my deliberate thoughts of the relationship — with every other random thought I could conjure up. It’s why I tossed and turned restlessly, in resistance of sleep and the possibility of further insight from my dreams.

Tonight

Recognising these acts of self betrayal, is a good thing. Now, I’m more determined to push against the comfort — and usher in change.

So, tonight…

tonight I’ll dream of you again — you might break my heart — or keep it bent — you may say I’m more than just a friend — tonight I’ll dream of you again.

Honestly, I hope I fall into the arms of Morpheus (the God of sleep and dreams in Greek mythology) — *shrugs shoulders* we’ll see.

Dream on

Disclaimer: the quote “ Comfort is the poison.” was seen by me on a projected banner on the stage at a Chris Rock show. It is unknown by me who actually said it.